Day Seven - Oh, yeah. Him.

It happened.  There was actually a period of time today during which I was not thinking about my son.  It was a crazy day at work - a lot going on and some high-level meetings to discuss a pretty sticky situation.  When it all closed for the day, I went back to my office, took a deep breath, and thought, "Oh my gosh!  I haven't thought about DS in at least an hour!"  It is kind of hard to believe.

I feel a bit like a bad mom for my temporary mental abandonment, but I think it is actually a good thing.  The guilt of leaving him during the day is vanishing.  I still ache to be near him and dropoff is a wee bit painful, but I know he is doing well and in caring hands at all moments of the day, so that pain is lessening.  The minutes of focus on my work mean that: 1) I am focusing on work and this is a good thing if I want to keep my job; 2) I am finding a bit more balance in regard to that work-life bit; and 3) My son is doing really well. 

I know DS is thriving - he shows us that in every way - and I think that my subconcious has finally recognized that and is giving me a bit of a break.  DS is forever and always foremost in my heart.  Every once in a while, he might take a backseat in my brain, but he's definitely still in the car.